"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see" Hebrews 11:1
Have you ever been unsure of what was going to happen? Scared because you just knew that your world was crumbling on top of you? Worried because you couldn't see what was going to happen next? Or fearing that the worse case scenario would play out? Ofcourse everyone has. Recently, I think I felt all of that.
I always thought I had faith, until everything wasn't going as I had expected it. Then, I learned I had NEVER had faith. I was unsure of what to expect, because I've always been in control. I felt like everything was against me. I had all these ideas of what would happen- and they were all the worse possible thing that could happen. All I did was upset myself more, depress myself, and almost hide myself away in a hole, not wanting to talk to anyone or do anything.
So I turned to the only one that I knew I could turn to- the one that didn't think I was an idiot or upset for no reason, the one that understood my emotions, addressed my concerns and gave me answers. That night I truely committed myself completely to God. I began reading my Bible daily and praying to God for everything.
Within a few days I came across Hebrews 11:1- "Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see"- well, I wasn't sure at all of what I hoped for and was definately certain of what I could not see. So this spoke to me.
A few days later I read Galatians 3:11b- "The righteous will live by faith". I made the connection.
I didn't just not have faith, I didn't have faith in God. Having faith is about trusting in God completely. Letting him control your life and the situations in it. Sitting in the drivers seat, but God holding the steering wheel, closing your eyes and saying okay God take me where you want me to be. It's about having no control over whats going to happen but trusting in God's plan, knowing that His plan no matter what it is will get you through, the good times and the bad.
All we have to do is "seek" Him. When we do that, we realize that God has a plan for us.
Dear Lord, Today I pray that you help me to continue to commit to you fully, not at my convenience. Help me to trust in you fully, giving up all control that I may have and allowing your will for my life and my family to be done. I ask that I recognize all the many blessings you have given me and that I follow you. Strengthen my faith Lord. Make me the mom, wife and woman that you want me to be. Amen!
